How I Didn’t Get My Agent

Trigger/Content Warning: This post is sad. It is coming from a really dark place and is my mental illness speaking through me. If you’re not in a good place for that kind of dark content, please tread no further, I would never want the expression my mental health to hurt someone else’s.


 

You know the posts about How I Got My Agent? A lot of your favorite authors have them on their website. Most of them are stories of victory over adversity. They’re about the pains of the querying trenches all being worth it. They’re about how there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. They’re really cool and often so inspiring.

This post isn’t that.

I’ve been crying for three days. I can’t stop. Every time I think I have it under control, it starts again. My throat burns, and I’m having trouble breathing my sinuses are so choked. I can’t sleep, can’t taste the food I eat. When I go to the gym, I end up sobbing so hard I can’t keep going. The other day after another unsuccessful workout, I curled into a ball on the yoga mat I was stretching on and fell asleep. Things aren’t good with me.

I’ve been rejected. Again. From Pitch Wars, again. For the third time. It’s a new manuscript but the same results. This book was a bright and shiny beacon I was so, so proud of. But I was proud of the last one, too. And it was rejected twice from Pitch Wars and received 27 form rejections or spots of silence after that. The last manuscript didn’t receive a single request from a single agent I submitted to. It seems like this one is headed down the same path.

After I was sure I wasn’t going to be getting into Pitch Wars, I braved the querying trenches once more. I want this so bad. And this manuscript, I assured myself, is different. It’s special. It’s so much of me that someone has to see it for what it is. I have worked so fucking hard.

Not hard enough. I received my first form rejection within 24 hours of sending the first query. Here we go again.

I laid under my desk at my day job where I work as a paralegal, surrounded by smart people I really like but who I’m so jealous of because they will always be more important and make more money than me because they have a piece of paper I don’t, and I wept. And when one of my coworkers found me, I blamed my period and ran to the bathroom to continue crying alone.

This isn’t my period. I haven’t gotten my period in three years. The doctors say it’s stress.  Stress I put on myself, or the world puts on me, I can’t be sure anymore. So no, this isn’t that. This is something else. This is the raw, ripe, stinging pain of rejection after rejection after rejection with no shining hope at the end of the tunnel. I am not good enough. I will never be good enough. I am what I am and what I am is not sufficient.

No one tells you about this part. No one records it. It’s not hopeful or pretty or tied neatly with an HEA and a bright red bow at the end. It’s bad for your look to look like no one wants you. But it’s the truth. And if I had a brand, which I don’t because you need to have a product to have a brand, it would be truth.

Here’s the truth. We aren’t all going to get agents and book deals. There are far more of us than there are of them. We aren’t all going to be able to live the dream and make enough money writing to quit our day jobs and pursue our passion. So we need to have contingent dreams. If I could give any young writer advice it would be that: Have another dream. Have something else to care about. Have something else to pay your bills and sate your passion. Search for it if you have to. Demand it of yourself, even if it doesn’t come naturally, even if you’re sure the only thing you’ll ever want is to be a writer. Find. Something. Else.

For me, something else is photography and fostering kittens. Sometimes, something else can almost be my day job. But whatever it is for you, don’t let writing become who you are. Let it be part of you, but not all of you. Save some of you for you.

And when you’re down, find a way to get back up, no matter how hard it is.

Take care of yourselves,

❤ Aimee

Book Review: The Merciful Crow

Trigger/Content Warnings: Violence, murder, mercy killings, animal abuse, discussion of discrimination/caste system.


513-1+H1+fLOfficial Blurb:

One way or another, we always feed the crows.

A future chieftain

Fie abides by one rule: look after your own. Her Crow caste of undertakers and mercy-killers takes more abuse than coin, but when they’re called to collect royal dead, she’s hoping they’ll find the payout of a lifetime.

A fugitive prince

When Crown Prince Jasimir turns out to have faked his death, Fie’s ready to cut her losses—and perhaps his throat. But he offers a wager that she can’t refuse: protect him from a ruthless queen, and he’ll protect the Crows when he reigns.

A too-cunning bodyguard

Hawk warrior Tavin has always put Jas’s life before his, magically assuming the prince’s appearance and shadowing his every step. But what happens when Tavin begins to want something to call his own?

My Take: 5/5 Stars

I will follow until I must lead. I will shield until I must strike. I will fight until I must heal.

~ Margaret Owen

Margaret Owen’s debut THE MERCIFUL CROW lived up to expectations. I knew almost from page one that I would love this book. It had me right from the beginning with its unique world, interesting social structures, and new magic system. Anyone who knows me knows I’m a sucker for a well-developed magic system. In my opinion, when it comes to designing magic, “keep it simple, stupid” is the way to go, and Margaret Owen kept it simple, yet found intricate ways to draw on that simplicity. It was a lovely design.

The found family in this book is also a breath of fresh air. I love that found family stories are becoming so popular, because they ring true and honest to me. This one was no exception. The main character was found, then she in turn found others, despite their differences, which was a beautiful message I want to hear more often.

I also weirdly appreciated the fact that the love interest wasn’t who I expected it to be from jump, which was great. In that aspect, The Merciful Crow was reminiscent of Spin the Dawn, another book with a love interest that wasn’t who I initially expected. Points for that! I read so much YA fantasy that when you can take me by surprise with something, you’ve done a great job!

All in all, I agree with the recommendation that this is a book for fans of Leigh Bardugo and Kendare Blake, and I am definitely looking forward to the next installment!

Question of the Day: What is one of your favorite magic systems?

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❤ Always,

Aimee

 

Book Review: The Cruel Prince

Trigger/Content Warnings: Violence, torture, child abuse.


51FVOvYrUuL._SX329_BO1,204,203,200_Official Blurb: Of course I want to be like them. They’re beautiful as blades forged in some divine fire. They will live forever.

And Cardan is even more beautiful than the rest. I hate him more than all the others. I hate him so much that sometimes when I look at him, I can hardly breathe.
 
Jude was seven years old when her parents were murdered and she and her two sisters were stolen away to live in the treacherous High Court of Faerie. Ten years later, Jude wants nothing more than to belong there, despite her mortality. But many of the fey despise humans. Especially Prince Cardan, the youngest and wickedest son of the High King.
To win a place at the Court, she must defy him–and face the consequences.
In doing so, she becomes embroiled in palace intrigues and deceptions, discovering her own capacity for bloodshed. But as civil war threatens to drown the Courts of Faerie in violence, Jude will need to risk her life in a dangerous alliance to save her sisters, and Faerie itself.
My Take: 5/5 Stars
Because you’re like a story that hasn’t happened yet. Because I want to see what you will do. I want to be part of the unfolding of the tale.
~ Holly Black
I know, I know. I’m EXTREMELY late to this party, especially considering how much I LOVED Holly Black’s The Darkest Part of the Forest. Partly it took me so long to read this one because I heard book two, The Wicked King ends on a cliffhanger, and I wanted to be closer to the release of book three, The Queen of Nothing. Partly I waited this long because I’m always so afraid a book won’t live up to its hype. I should not have been afraid.
THE CRUEL PRINCE is what everyone says it is. It is a fast-paced, emotional roller coaster that has twists and bends you don’t see coming and others you do see but want to cover your eyes for. You don’t, though. You can’t look away.
The thing I admire most about Holly Black’s writing, however, other than the wending plot and the edge-of-your seat intensity, of course, is how accurate her teen characters are. In young adult fantasy, especially, characters often seem to act older than their contemporary counterparts. Holly Black’s characters don’t, and I like that. I like that they pull faces and shout insults. I like that they’re moody and impetuous and don’t think carefully over every decision. That’s what makes them interesting!
I also admire Holly Black’s ability at crafting sibling relationships. As someone who spent 16 years of her life as an only child and has never lived with her half-brother, I see sibling relationships differently, and I struggle writing them. I love authors who get them just right, as Holly Black does. They’re never simple, always complicated, and are full of everything I want to see: rivalry; jealousy; and deep, unending pools of love.
Overall, I’d definitely recommend The Cruel Prince to everyone and anyone who enjoys young adult fantasy that is dark, rich, and full of well-rounded, messy as hell characters.
Question of the Day: Who is your favorite messy character?
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Aimee

 

Do Audiobooks “Count”?

Woo! Something bookish (besides a book review) to talk about two weeks in a row! Look at me!

So let’s get right down to today’s topic. Do audiobooks count as books read?

Spoiler alert: Yes. They do. And to be honest, I’m not really sure why this is an issue I keep seeing come up, but I do, and it’s starting to get me a little feisty, so here’s my take on it all.

First off, “reading” a book basically means absorbing it, understanding it. When we’re tested on reading comprehension we’re not tested on can. you. read. each. of. these. individual. words. We’re tested on can you string these words into a sentence and understand them. You don’t actually have to physically read the words with your eyes to string them into a sentence and understand them. Simply put, reading is not a physical act you need sight to complete.

Which leads me to my second point which is: it is ableist as hell to tell someone that audiobooks don’t “count” as reading. What about blind folks? Do they have to get a book in Braille for it to count, per this silly rule? Do you know how few physical books there are that are produced in Braille? And how expensive they are? A copy of The Hobbit is $72.95. Want a more recent young adult book? A copy of Ash Princess is $97.95. Game of Thrones$239.95. Audiobooks are expensive, too, don’t get me wrong, but they’re more widely available, and there are many more library options.

It’s not only blind people who this nonsense excludes, either. “Not counting” audiobooks also hurts people who have learning disabilities like dyslexia and ADHD. Audiobooks are often used as an alternative method of teaching for kids (and adults) whose brains aren’t neurotypical. Just because some people mix letters up doesn’t mean they’re not able to comprehend stories and information. It doesn’t mean they don’t count.

I think this is really why this issue fires me up, to be perfectly honest. Because by saying audiobooks don’t “count,” it feels like people are saying those for whom audiobooks are the only viable (or affordable or accessible) option don’t “count” when they in fact do. Very much. They’re just as much a part of the literary community as everyone else. I want them as part of my audience (although I can’t afford to produce an audiobook at this stage in my self-published career). I want everyone as part of my audience. I want that tent to be as wide and welcoming as possible. I don’t care how you absorb stories; I only care that you do.

Ableism is point one and the most important, but point two is time. Some people don’t have time to read as much as they’d like (or at all). Single parrents, workaholic types, people having to hold multiple jobs, people doing school and work, those with long commutes, the people who might make up this category are endless. As you get older and take on more and more responsibilities, you have less and less free time. And what free time you have is precious. Maybe you’re trying to get that side hustle going. Maybe you need to spend more time with your partner or children. Maybe you’re just too damn tired from struggling that you can’t make the words turn into sentences at the end of a sixteen-hour day. Audiobooks give you back a little bit of free time because you can read and do other things. I listen to audiobooks on my long commute, at the gym, while I’m cooking dinner, taking the dog on a walk, cleaning my house, etc. All things that need to happen, all things that cut into the time I have to read a physical book. To have the luxury to have so much free time that you can choose not to “count” audiobooks is a privilege, plain and simple.

Final point on why audiobooks definitely count as books read: because not counting them is silly, really. I recently listened to Furyborn by Claire Legrand on audiobook. I wasn’t taken with the narrator, so I read the sequel, Kingsbane, in hardback. Shockingly, I didn’t have to go back and read Furyborn in hardback to understand Kingsbane. I simply picked up the book, opened the cover, and started to read. This is because I’d read it by listening to it. I mean, this is not that complicated.

So, at the end of the day, this is my word problem: According to Goodreads, Aimee has read 55 books this year. If 27 of them were audiobooks, how many books has Aimee read this year?

Answer: Aimee has read 55 books this year.

As always, be kind to yourself, and keep at those Goodreads goals, however you reach them!

❤ Aimee

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Bookstagram photograph from @writingwaimee of audiobook version of Mama’s Last Hug by Frans de Waal surrounded by red butterflies.

 

 

Book Review: The Hunger Games

Trigger/Content Warnings: Violence, violence toward children, child death, child mutilation, sexual assault, war, poverty, starvation, depression, suicidal ideation and thought, PTSD.


41ir9m8QQnL._SX332_BO1,204,203,200_Official Blurb: In the ruins of a place once known as North America lies the nation of Panem, a shining Capitol surrounded by twelve outlying districts. Long ago the districts waged war on the Capitol and were defeated. As part of the surrender terms, each district agreed to send one boy and one girl to appear in an annual televised event called, “The Hunger Games,” a fight to the death on live TV. Sixteen-year-old Katniss Everdeen, who lives alone with her mother and younger sister, regards it as a death sentence when she is forced to represent her district in the Games. The terrain, rules, and level of audience participation may change but one thing is constant: kill or be killed.

 

My Take: 5/5 Stars for overall series, 5/5 for The Hunger Games, 5/5 for Catching Fire, 4/5 for Mockingjay.

Stupid people are dangerous.

~ Suzanne Collins

I know, I know, I know. What rock have I been hiding under? To be honest, I hesitated to even post this review because … old news, seriously. However, I am a little lean on five star books these days (partly my fault for not making the time to read and partly a bit of a slump I think) and this series is really very good, so I wanted to post a Five Star Series Review.

The thing that works the best for me about this series is the subtlety of the evolution of Katniss’s character. It’s like a slow burn character arc that by book three makes you feel completely wrung out, right along with Katniss. But it’s magical the way it works because it sneaks up on you so you don’t even really notice it’s happening. With all the violence in this book, the character arc is very light-handed. It works brilliantly which is good because honestly, with all the violence this series brings to it, if a single other thing was heavy handed, I don’t know that the series would be readable.

In addition to the character arc of the whole series, The Hunger Games in particular, but also Catching Fire are brilliantly paced. I read them both in one day each because I could hardly put them down (even having watched the movies and therefore knowing what was coming). The world building is equally as interesting and dynamic, again, even having watched the movies. The contrast between the Districts, and the Capitol, and then the arena, is striking. I honestly wish we had a spinoff though that took me on a tour of some of the other Districts, particularly four and seven (Finnick and Johanna’s Districts). I guess this is what fanfiction is for!

But everyone who follows this blog knows the final word on “good book” is whether you have a book hangover when it’s all said and done. And let me tell you, by the time I got to the end of Mockingjay I felt like I might not be in any shape to read for at least a week. It was SUCH an intense ride. And if a series can do that to you when you know how it all ends, then it’s definitely doing something right!

What’s an older backlist series you really want to read but haven’t gotten to yet?

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❤ Always,

Aimee

 

 

 

Diversity Check In

I met my Goodreads goal for the year (which was 50 books) so I figured it was time for a diversity check in! Don’t know what that is because you’re new around here? Well click here and you’ll get the scoop about what this is and why I’m doing it!

I think I’ve done pretty well this time around, but we shall seeeee!

Books Read in 2019: 55 (A nod to Audible, couldn’t have done it without you. Side note: Audiobooks count as books read, don’t @ me. Also, in the spirit of this being a post about celebrating diversity and trying to expand our reading horizons, it’s sort of ableist to contend that only physical books read count as books read, just saying).

Books by Female Authors: 46 (I feel like I can probably go ahead and stop counting this one from here on out).

Books by POC Authors: 17 (This equates to around 31% of the books I read. According to the US Census Bureau, about 41.8% of the population identifies as a person of color, so I still need to get this up if I want to read to reflect the world around me).

Books by LGBTQIA+ Authors: 6 (As usual, I note that not all of these numbers may be accurate as some of these authors may choose to keep their personal lives out of the public sphere).

Books by Authors with Disabilities: 1 (This continues to be an area that is hard to discern and lacking in my reading choices, as it turns out. I also am unsure if I include mental illness in this category or give it its own category, but that’s another thing that is harder to discern without really digging into people’s personal stories which isn’t something, as an author myself, I’m keen to do, unless the author is very open about it).

Books by Authors who are Non-Christian: 4 (This is another one I need to work on, but I do have a couple up on the docket for this month/next month so hopefully this number will go up a bit).

So all in all, I’m getting better about reading books by POC (though there’s still clearly a lot of room for improvement) but still need to continue seeking out books by LGBTQIA+ authors, those with disabilities, and non-Christian authors. Additionally, I’ve realized I haven’t read a SINGLE book by an indigenous author this whole year, so if you have one you loved, please hit me up in the comments!

❤ Always,

Aimee

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Book Review: Furyborn

Trigger/Content Warnings: Violence, parental neglect, emotional abuse (parental), sexual assault.


51cl1gq0zuL._SX332_BO1,204,203,200_Official Blurb:  When assassins ambush her best friend, Rielle Dardenne risks everything to save him, exposing herself as one of a pair of prophesied queens: a queen of light, and a queen of blood. To prove she is the Sun Queen, Rielle must endure seven elemental magic trials. If she fails, she will be executed…unless the trials kill her first.

One thousand years later, the legend of Queen Rielle is a fairy tale to Eliana Ferracora. A bounty hunter for the Undying Empire, Eliana believes herself untouchable―until her mother vanishes. To find her, Eliana joins a rebel captain and discovers that the evil at the empire’s heart is more terrible than she ever imagined.

As Rielle and Eliana fight in a cosmic war that spans millennia, their stories intersect, and the shocking connections between them ultimately determine the fate of their world―and of each other.

My Take: 5/5 Stars

Some say the Queen was frightened in her last moments. But I like to think that she was angry.

~ Claire Legrand

Those who know me know that I am a sucker for elemental magic. My own books are about elemental magic. The very first manuscript I ever wrote, at the tender age of twelve, featured a mage who could wield all six elements within my magic system, so when I read the blurb of FURYBORN, I was all in.

Furyborn turned out to have so much more intricacy than simply its magic system, though. The storytelling was impressive. The book is written from two points of view, two women with powers who live a thousand years apart. Yet, as their stories weave in and out of one another and start to come together, the reader has no choice but to find herself in awe of the net she’s been pulled into. It’s a book that unravels itself, and leaves the reader thinking about it long after the pages are done. One of those books that almost demands a reread now that you understand it in its entirety. It’s spectacularly well done.

In addition to the magical way the story unwinds itself, the characters are unique and dynamic. Their development through book one is smooth and well-integrated. Even knowing what the reader knows about the characters at the outset, she can’t help but be sucked into the dramas of their lives (and trust me, their lives ARE dramatic). Legrand pulls the reader along, wending through the twists and turns of the character arc of each of her point of view characters as they crisscross one another like comets shooting in opposing directions. As a reader, you want to know more about these characters. You want to follow them, so as a writer, Legrand definitely knocked this one out of the park.

Furyborn is dark, though, definitely at the upper spectrum of young adult into the new adult territory. But if you’re into elemental magic and inspired plotting, this book is for you.

If you could have only one elemental power, what would it be?

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❤ Always,

Aimee

Book Review: Finale

Official Blurb: 91xyJ8LjggLWelcome, welcome to Finale, the third and final audiobook in Stephanie Garber’s number one New York Times best-selling Caraval series!

A love worth fighting for. A dream worth dying for. An ending worth waiting for.

It’s been two months since the Fates were freed from a deck of cards, two months since Legend claimed the throne for his own, and two months since Tella discovered the boy she fell in love with doesn’t really exist.

With lives, empires, and hearts hanging in the balance, Tella must decide if she’s going to trust Legend or a former enemy. After uncovering a secret that upends her life, Scarlett will need to do the impossible. And Legend has a choice to make that will forever change and define him.

Caraval is over, but perhaps the greatest game of all has begun. There are no spectators this time: only those who will win and those who will lose everything.

Welcome, welcome to Finale. All games must come to an end….

My Take: 5/5 Stars

Occasionally, there are minutes that get extra seconds. Moments so precious the universe stretches to make additional room for them.

~Stephanie Garber

FINALE was my second most anticipated read of the year (right after KING OF SCARS) and it did not disappoint even a little bit. By page 55 my heart was thumping, and I was in a frenzy. I squealed in glee, I gnashed my teeth in anticipation, I growled in frustration. I would put the book down so I could savor it only to start twitching, desperate to pick it back up. I read it, naturally, in one sitting. I was frustrated with myself for being unable to read faster yet irritated with my need-to-know nature because I knew I would be devastated by the time the book was over and my hands were empty.

Predictable. I am so, so very predictable. Because I did read it too fast, and I was upset when I had no more book. I felt like that inquisitive yet sad character in one’s mind who picks up the book and shakes its pages a little, hoping more story will fall out. Sadly, this was the end of the legend of Legend and Donatella and Scarlett. But I look back and realize that I loved every single moment of following them, which is surprising considering (in my humble opinion) it is hard to pull off a good close. This was a good close. Yet it left enough open that I thought about it and thought about it and considered reopening my fanfiction.net account for some good old fashioned wish fulfillment. Because, I don’t do spoilers here, but there was one someone I wanted to see more of. (As an aside, when you want to write fanfiction about a book, the author has done it right).

The world of Caraval has been magical, but the thing that pulled me back every time were the characters. Especially Tella. Fierce, stubborn, brilliant Tella. When I read Caraval, I loved Scarlett so much I could barely contain myself. I loved her because she was something you don’t see often in YA fantasy: she was soft and cautious and agency came slowly to her. Tella, in a nutshell, is a girl like me. So when I opened up Legendary, I was nervous at first to see it was from Tella’s point of view. But then I realized Tella was amazing in a different way. Tella was the girl I want to be. And seeing them both evolve and shift and grow and change has been a complete joy. Stephanie Garber is the kind of writer I aspire to me. The kind of writer who is unapologetic and honest. Whose characters draw you back time and time again.

I have no idea what is in store next for Stephanie, but whatever it is, you can be sure I’ll be lining up to get my hands on it.

This week’s question: What’s your favorite (finished) series?

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❤ Aimee

 

Book Review: Children of Blood and Bone

Trigger/Content Warnings: Violence, sexual assault, physical assault, murder, themes of racism/brutality against black bodies, emotional abuse, parental abuse, slavery.


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They killed my mother.
They took our magic.
They tried to bury us.

Now we rise.

Zélie Adebola remembers when the soil of Orïsha hummed with magic. Burners ignited flames, Tiders beckoned waves, and Zélie’s Reaper mother summoned forth souls.

But everything changed the night magic disappeared. Under the orders of a ruthless king, maji were killed, leaving Zélie without a mother and her people without hope.

Now Zélie has one chance to bring back magic and strike against the monarchy. With the help of a rogue princess, Zélie must outwit and outrun the crown prince, who is hell-bent on eradicating magic for good.

Danger lurks in Orïsha, where snow leoponaires prowl and vengeful spirits wait in the waters. Yet the greatest danger may be Zélie herself as she struggles to control her powers and her growing feelings for an enemy.

My Take: 5/5 Stars

I teach you to be warriors in the garden so you will never be gardeners in the war.” ~ Tomi Adeyemi

I feel like I have to premise this post by telling you about how much I admire Tomi Adeyemi. Number one, she’s a Harvard grad which always impresses me (I’m a snob, I’ll admit it). Number two, she was only 24 years old when this book, her debut, came out and hit the NYT Bestsellers List at NUMBER ONE. It’s been on The List for 61 consecutive weeks. And she was even YOUNGER when she landed her record-setting, three-book deal. Also, I’ve listened to her on several podcasts and the like, and she’s brilliant and inspirational.

So why did it take me so long to get to this read if I admire her so much and KNEW this book would land on my Five Star list? Well, because I’m kind of a jerk about big books these days (I know, it’s ridiculous, I used to adore big books but as I get older I just… hesitate), and this book was a TOME on my front door. I had it pre-ordered (naturally) and was so excited when it arrived. Then I opened it and… it was bigger than I expected.

Anyway, I have been trying to break myself of this stupid, new fear over big books by getting them on audiobook, which I did for CHILDREN OF BLOOD AND BONE, and I’m actually SUPER glad I listened to this one. It’s narrated by Bahni Turpin who is one of my favorite audiobook narrators in general, but this was the best performance of hers I’ve heard thus far. It was magical. Bahni SINGS in this book, and I seriously never wanted her to stop. I wanted her to sing me the entire book. I wanted someone to put her on a stage and make this into a single-player performance. It would be long, I admit, but maybe we could do like a fifteen-part series? Please? I know the book has sold movie rights, but can someone cast Bahni? It was such an amazing listen. Also, I just looked Bahni up to see who I’d cast her as, and she’s gorgeous and would TOTALLY be an amazing mom to Zélie, just saying. If anyone at Fox 2000 stumbles upon this gushing rant, you can take this idea.

Ahem… back to the book. Children of Blood and Bone was as magical as Bahni’s performance of it, naturally. It had me from page one. One of the hardest things about writing a book, somewhat weirdly, is finding the right place to start it. This book had about the best starting point of anything I’ve read in recent memory, which made my writing brain happy.

That wasn’t all, either. Stylistically, this book was smart. Because I don’t do spoilers here, I won’t get into anything too complicated, but I will say that there are creatures in Adeyemi’s book that are constructed in a way that had me going, “Wow, that’s really brilliant what she did there.” The way she constructed her world, and her characters, had me really thinking about how much work she put into the writing of this novel.

Yet with all its smart style and flashy world building, what resonates probably the most with the reader is characterization. Adeyemi’s characters stick with you. They’re delightfully messy, fully rounded, and totally relatable. Even the villain. This book is written in three points of view and each one brings you a different worldview, all as understandable and complicated as the next. Through the different lenses she uses, Adeyemi brilliant fleshes out the complications of her world, and ours. Again, smart.

Needless to say, I adored this book. But forewarning, it did end on an aching cliffhanger. Good news though, the next book Virtue and Vengeance, is slated to release in December of this year. And yes, I have it preordered already!

Tuesday’s Question: Who is your favorite audiobook narrator?

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❤ Aimee

 

Diversity Check In

Hey guys! I haven’t had any blog topics lately (if there’s anything you want to hear about from me, let me know in the comments), but I have been reading a ton, so I thought it would be a good time to do another Diversity Check In. Click on the link to read more about what I mean by that! And why I’m doing these.

I don’t have super high hopes for this check-in because I honestly started to realize recently that I was reading a lot of books by white women lately without really thinking about, but that’s why we do these check-ins. And hey, good news is that I did a self check-in, too! So improvements. Honestly, this is the exact process my therapist uses with me to try and work on some of my ingrained trauma responses too. The first step to fixing a problem is recognizing the problem.

Anyway, here we goooooo!

Books Read in 2019: 35 (I am KILLING my Goodreads challenge. Thank you coworker who introduced me to Audible).

Books by Female Authors: 31 (This probably has more to say about the age group (YA) I read than anything else, really, see this post about my feelings about that).

Books by POC Authors: 11 (Yeah, see what I mean?)

Books by LGBTQIA Authors: 4 (Not all of these numbers may be accurate as some of these authors may choose to keep their personal lives out of the public sphere which I am 100% okay with)

Books by Authors with Disabilities: 1 (This is probably the hardest one to discern, but looking at my list at least, other than Leigh Bardugo, none of the stories I read really featured characters with disabilities, something I should definitely work on).

Books by Authors who are Non-Christian: 2 (Again, this is not any easy one to discern, especially since I read fantasy, but this is also a category I need to continue to work on).

So the lesson learned? When we don’t do these check-ins with ourselves, we fall back into our old habits. At least until we develop new ones! So onward and upward into a more diverse reading rhythm I go!

Wanna rec an awesome diverse read for me? Hit me up in the comments!

❤ Always,

Aimee human-2944065_1920